More Rainbows and Stars!

It's hard to believe that over a week has gone past since I have 'posted!' - getting it started seemed like such a challenge, but I now realise that the real challenge is going to be keeping it going! I have to say, that I don't have any excuse, not too many "bad days" this week - yes I'm tired and I worry at the slightest physical symptom, but really I don't have too much to be complaining about.

I am facing round 3 of an intial 6 sessions of chemo on Thursday of this week at the the chemo unit in Antrim area hospital. I have often heard the nursing staff at such places refered to as angels, but never quite understood how true this is. There is something so serene and genuine in their warmth. Nothing is too much trouble or bother and they are happy to reassure, answer questions, mop up the sick, and wipe away the tears, as well as share the jokes and the banter with all those they encounter. They are definately stars and rainbows (as well as angels.)

I received a card from a friend today and it says "sometimes there are more questions than answers . . . .  times when our hearts are weary and our strength fades - but when we cannot stand, God carries us through . . . . " How true this is. I don't think that I've ever felt closer to God.
I know many people turn to God in times like these, but for those of you who know me, you will know that I have had a faith for a very long time - but now more than ever, that "blind faith" - trusting Him no matter what the outcome, has really been brought forth.
I do worry about our boys, what will happen to them if something happens to me and I do think, at times angrily, that I should be the one to see them grow up into men - that maternal instinct really takes over and kicks in!!! It is this faith, that reminds me, that no matter what, even if the "worst outcome" happens, that God not only has me, but the whole family in his hand. Those boys with their cheeky grins and full of fun, will grow up whether I'm here or not, and they will be ok. They too are not only my children but God's and He is with them in this as much as He is me.

Enough of the morbid talk, (I'll be scaring you all away from reading the blog!) - you haven't got rid of me that easily, and as my friend Sharon says, she's only letting me have 6 months off my volunteering at GB, so I have to be better after that - there's no option, or I'll have her to answer to.

I have spent a lovely few days with the boys, getting ready for birthdays and spending time with Thomas - as you can see from this photo he has been discovering bubbles this week, and really enjoying them.

My lovely husband had a "day out" on Sunday, when he spent the day with some colleagues photographing at various locations around Northern Ireland - he even found me a rainbow!

It's a beautiful reminder of the rainbows and stars that we all encounter as we journey.